Thursday, March 29, 2018

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Fairy Tale Spotlight: Hypnagogia and Surrealism

Look at the title of this blog. At least one of these words is probably confusing to you, and there may be a chance that you are not seeing them at all. This could just as easily be a blog about something entirely unrelated. You may not even be seeing what you think you are seeing. Your imagination might be painting over what is real. If that is happening, don't panic. Chances are you are just sleepy.

Hypnagogia is a state in which a person is between being awake and asleep. It is the moment where what they are thinking about begins to become more important than what they are seeing. It is a moment of euphoria as the imagination takes over and guides the person to a point where his mind stops working altogether which will inevitably lead to dreaming during the course of one's sleep.

I have always seen this moment in the likeness of falling down a great tunnel. Your bed simply collapses under you and you fall to some other frequency within reality. You are still there in reality, but reality itself has fallen off your radar. You are traveling into the realm of dreams powered by an untethered imagination. Here, what you see is what you are thinking. Welcome to your subconscious.

Surrealism is the aspect of seeing something that conflicts with standard reality (reality as in when you are awake.) You see much of this when dreaming, but the part of you that can tell the difference is turned off. You are free of the forced oppression of the disbelief in impossible things. The impossible things make sense and you embrace them. This only lasts while you are asleep and for a short period after you wake up. You soon realize that what you saw and heard was only your imagination. This allows you to shrug it off.

You are sitting at your desk at work. Suddenly you look down and notice a pencil appears to be floating about half an inch off of your desk. It isn't doing anything else, but you do notice it. You lower your head down to the desk to make sure you are not going crazy. You aren't. The pencil is actually floating. You try and touch the pencil. A moment later, you are not sure if you tried or not. You try and remember if you did and cannot seem to recall.

You lean on your elbows and try to figure out what it happening. Are you awake? Have you lost your mind? The pen is still floating. But wait. Wasn't it a pencil? Actually, it may have been a pen all along. You never keep pencils at work anyways. You haven't used an actual pencil since school.

Suddenly you stand up and walk to the window behind you. You look out of the window and down to the ground level. It's bright out, but no one is walking and no one is driving. The streets are empty. You open the door to your office. The entire place is empty and the lights are off. Is the place closed? Why would they close so early?

You look back into your office at the window. It's nighttime outside. It makes sense. Why would it be bright out when the office is closed. It must have been night all along. You sit back down at the desk and see the marker that is still floating on the table. You try and touch it.

Surrealism is generally used to describe the concept of feeling like you are in a dream when you are actually awake. Odd things begin occurring that you cannot explain. The common reaction to this is to try and figure out exactly what is going on. People are both fascinated and frightened of the surreal. It generally means something is wrong but not obvious. Hypnogogia is the condition in which you slip into these odd frequencies and begin to experience what lies behind the reality that you are accustomed to.

When experiencing these things, you may feel confused, but don't dismiss it out of hand. Your brain may simply be having difficulty interpreting what it is seeing. It is trying to make sense of it. Take a deep breath. Calm down. Look at what you are seeing and attempt to interact with it based on instant judgement. Don't try and calculate it. Don't try and figure out its meaning. Operate entirely by the heart and make your way through the corridor. The truth is on the other side, and you will be better for having found it. It's time to believe.

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Tuesday, March 27, 2018

Fairy Tale Spotlight: Bahamut (Hazmat Modine)

Every once in a while a fairy tale will pop up in song lyrics. They are often based on legends or stories. A very interesting band called Hazmat Modine came up with a song about an interesting Persian legend. Although it takes a couple liberties, I really want to focus on the lyrics of this song for the purpose of this particular blog.

Because of its brevity, I will be including the lyrics of the entire song below. I encourage you to read them carefully. A link to the actual song will be included at the bottom of this blog. And now, here is "Bahamut" by Hazmat Modine:

Well, Bohemoth calls us his own
While Bahamut wanders alone
They both go out to play
On that cold and rainy day

And Bohemoth sings us his song
While Bahamut wanders along
But in the glory of this spring
You can hear Bahamut sing

Whoa-ho-ho
Are you as big as me?
Whoa-ho-ho-ho
Way too big to see
Whoa-ho-ho-ho-ho
Bahamut he goes so slow
Whoa-ho-ho-ho
Too big a place to go

(Solos)

(Spoken)
The entire known universe
Floats suspended in a thin silver bowl
Which rocks gently on the back
Of an immense blue-green tortuga
And the tortuga's scaly feet
Are firmly placed on the topmost
Of seven craggy mountains
Which arise from a vast and arid plain
Of drifting, fetid, yellow dust
And the plain is balanced precariously
On top of a small thin green acacia tree?
Which grows from the snout
Of a giant blood red ox
With 50 eyes that breathes flame
The color of the midnight sky
And the ox's hooves are firmly placed
On the single grain of sand
Which floats in the eye of Bahamut
Like a mote of dust
No one has ever seen Bahamut
Some think it's a fish
Some think it's a newt
All we know is that the lonely Bahamut
Floats endlessly through all time and all space
With all of us and everything
Floating in a single tear
Of his eye

Well, Bohemoth calls us his own
While Bahamut wanders alone
When they both go out to play
On that cold and rainy day

And Bohemoth sings us his song
While Bahamut wanders alone
But in the glory of their fall
You can hear Bahamut call

Whoa-ho-ho
Are you as big as me?
Whoa-ho-ho-ho
Way too big to see
Whoa-ho-ho-ho-ho
Bahamut he goes so slow
Whoa-ho-ho-ho
Too big a place to go

And now some commentary! This is a remarkably eccentric view of the concept of the universe and existence in general. But the story itself is one that is both touching and sad. Not necessarily for the poor humans in that situation. Actually they seem fine. It's Bahamut that has it hard!

The story told in these lyrics is really about the loneliest creature in existence. He is basically a giant fish that floats out in the cosmos and has no one to talk to for all of eternity. And when I say cosmos, I'm not really talking about space. Although the story does mention that he drifts about in space, I am not certain they are talking about outer space. It sounds more like "outer outer space." Space beyond space. The empty existence that exists outside of the universe of which contains the universe itself. And the only one who exists here is a lonely fish of which size is incomprehensible.

The song also opens the mind to the concept of how big is big and how small is small. Although the story seems to stop at Bahamut, it suggests that there could be an even bigger creature than even him. The problem is that, if there is such a creature, he is too big to have a relationship with the poor fish. And likewise, we can't communicate with him for the same reasons. He is simply too separated from anyone else by size. So he cries and exists in his sad state.

There is another character in the sung parts called Bohemeth. I did a little research on this one. He is sometimes simply a variant of Bahamut, but in this story, he is very likely the giant ox. There is a possibility that Bahamut can hear the song that Bohemeth is singing, but he very likely does not know exactly where it is coming from. This is also quite sad. Perhaps, he uses it as a strange lullaby to help him sleep.

I am willing to wager every last bit of myself to say that the events of this story is completely untrue. Nevertheless, it is a super cool story. It somehow manages to spark the imagination. As we hear the song, our minds travel to larger and larger places just so we can comprehend it. It is well written and fun, and Hazmat Modine's performance of it definitely gave much to its presentation. Imagination should have no bars in its attempt to create. It can take us to worlds that never existed. "Bahamut" is a good example of man's attempt to recreate the world through fiction on a brilliant scale.

If you would like to hear the song for yourself, here is a link to the official YouTube video:
https://youtu.be/n58tlDXDLO8

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Thursday, March 22, 2018

Fairy Tale Spotlight: Definitions with Commentary (Vol. 1)

[All definitions are taken from Noah Webster's American Dictionary of the English Language (1828). Enjoy.]

-Fairy-

noun

1. A fay; an imaginary being or spirit, supposed to assume a human form, dance in meadows, steal infants and play a variety of pranks. [See Elf and Demon.]

2. An enchantress.

Fairy of the mine, an imaginary being supposed to inhabit mines, wandering about in the drifts and chambers, always employed in cutting ore, turning the windlass, etc., yet effecting nothing. The Germans believe in two species; one fierce and malevolent; the other gentle. [See Cobalt.]

Fairy ring or circle, a phenomenon observed in fields, vulgarly supposed to be caused by fairies in their dances. This circle is of two kinds; one about seven yards in diameter, containing a round bare path, a foot broad, with green grass in the middle; the other of different size, encompassed with grass.

adjective

1. Belonging to fairies; as fairy land

2. Given by fairies; as fairy money or favors.

Commentary: I noted that the original definition refers to the fairy as imaginary. There are many fairies who may be the product of the imagination. Even in the 1800's, people were still coming up with fictional stories about these creatures.

I also noticed that the dictionary connected fairies with elves and demons. Why? Because it is very likely true! Many fantasy stories about fairies were based on encounters with real beings.

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-Demon-

noun

A spirit, or immaterial being, holding a middle place between men and the celestial deities of the Pagans. The ancients believed that there were good and evil demons, which had influence over the minds of men, and that these beings carried on an intercourse between men and gods, conveying the addresses of men to the gods, and divine benefits to men. Hence demons became the objects of worship. It was supposed also that human spirits, after their departure from the body, became demons, and that the souls of virtuous men, if highly purified, were exalted from demons into gods. The demons of the New Testament were supposed to be spiritual beings which vexed and tormented men. And in general , the word, in modern use, signifies an evil spirit or genius, which influences the conduct or directs the fortunes of mankind.

Commentary: A lot of interesting stuff here. For one, it is clear that Satan is not a demon. You may have already known that, but I wanted to simply confirm it. Demons seem to exist between the worlds of "gods" and men. This denotes that they simply don't belong anywhere. That is actually rather sad if you think on it.

The definition also suggests that it was believed that there were good and evil demons. Is this true? It's not impossible. The basic definition does not out-rightly claim demons to be evil. They are simply spirits caught between two worlds. Nevertheless, I wouldn't try and make friends with one. Play it safe. After all, the final part of the definition mentions the word "genius." Don't think for a moment you can outsmart one of these creatures.

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-Devil-

noun

1. In the Christian theology, an evil spirit or being; a fallen angel, expelled from heaven for rebellion against God; the chief of the apostate angels; the implacable enemy and tempter of the human race. In the New Testament, the word is frequently and erroneously used for demon.

2. A very wicked person, and in ludicrous language, an great evil. In profane language, it is an expletive expressing wonder, vexation, etc.

3. An idol, or false god. Leviticus 17:7. 2 Chronicles 11:15.

Commentary: A devil is actually a fallen angel. Satan would be included in this lot. These were the group of angels who turned against God. They are evil. They are also not demons, and this definition makes that clear. The 2nd and 3rd definition are common usage related and not really relevant to this discussion.

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-Magic-

noun

1. The art or science of putting into action the power of spirits; or the science of producing wonderful effects by the aid of superhuman beings, or of departed spirits; sorcery; enchantment. [This art or science is now discarded.]

2. The secret operations of natural causes.

Natural magic the application of natural causes to passive subjects, by which surprising effects are produced.magic, attributes to spirits a kind of dominion over the planets, and to the planets an influence over men.

Superstitious or geotic magic consists in the invocation of devils or demons, and supposes some tacit or express agreement between them and human beings.

Magic square, a square figure, formed by a series of numbers in mathematical proportion, so disposed in parallel and equal ranks, as that the sums of each row or line taken perpendicularly, horizontally, or diagonally, are equal.

Magic lantern, a dioptric machine invented by Kircher, which, by means of a map in a dark room, exhibits images of objects in their distinct colors and proportions, with the appearance of life itself.

Commentary: Did you see that? The art or science of superhuman beings. Were there beings who showed up one day and started to dazzle us with the impossible? There is also a little note left in brackets which suggests they have discontinued these practices... for some reason. Where did they go? Did they really cease practicing these arts, or did they simply hide these acts from the public?

The second definition states that magic is the secret operation of natural causes. This suggests that our own modern day technology is actually a form of magic. We are using the world around us to make amazing things happen. Is a smart phone magic? Take one back to 1828 and see what they think about it!

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-Witch-

noun

1. A woman who by compact with the devil, practices sorcery or enchantment.

2. A woman who is given to unlawful arts.

3. A winding sinuous bank.

verb transitive

To bewitch; to fascinate; to enchant.

I'll witch sweet ladies with my words and looks.

Commentary: This old definition of "witch" clearly shows that she is a female and has formed a compact with the devil. The usage of the article "the" suggests that the devil in question is likely Satan himself rather than just some other fallen angel. Even if it is a secondary fallen angel, Satan is still probably the one with the final say and ultimately controls the witch in any situation.

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Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Fairy Tale Spotlight: Choosing Not to Believe

Have you ever heard someone say that they are choosing not to believe in something? They may even give you a reason. "I don't believe in God because he has been responsible for the deaths of so many people." That's one I hear a lot. So they choose to believe in other things that fit a preferable view of the world around them. I want to present to you, within this blog, what is actually taking place when this happens.

Let us first look at what belief is as a concept while contrasting it with knowledge. Belief has always been a choice. It can be persuaded, but ultimately it has to do with if the person will believe what they have either seen or been told. Belief is entirely distinct from personal knowledge. It exists on a different plane entirely. You can know one thing but believe something else in a process known as self-deception. This can be done through a defensive action or by a deliberate one.

Now let us look at knowledge. Knowledge is a clear and certain perception of that which exists. It is based entirely on truth and fact. Conversely knowledge is not at all based on your perception of a falsehood. The latter is referred to as a misunderstanding. A misunderstanding is, by definition, a mistake in meaning. It happens when you see something but misinterpret what you see for something that is not really there. It does not create knowledge but a corruption of what is known. Knowledge is only that which we are aware of that is actually truth.

Since a belief is a choice, if one chooses to believe in something that is alternate to what is being presented, it begs the question if they actually knew the truth in the first place. Saying I am choosing to believe in something else is like saying, "I know that is true, but I am more comfortable in believing in something that is not true." This creates a forced misunderstanding that the human being will accept as knowledge. Another name for this would be an accepted corruption of the mind.

Remember my early example? "I don't believe in God because he has been responsible for the deaths of so many people." It is possible that the person saying this actually had no idea that God did that at all. Only hearing that God did it is not knowledge. It's merely unconfirmed information. But this still makes the act of choosing to believe otherwise very suspicious! If they don't actually know that God did those things, why are they bothering to choose an alternate belief. Why are they denying something that has not been confirmed as knowledge?

The answer could be that they are, for some reason, assuming that it is true. I mean... they may have been brought up and taught that everything said in Sunday School is true and simply became annoyed with it later in life. An assumption is a weird animal in and of itself. It is the act of supposing without proof--also known as a supposition. It is the act of treating an unconfirmed fact as if it were true knowledge. Differing from a misunderstanding, an assumption may actually be true. A misunderstanding is never true.

An assumption is stronger because it is commonly based on a serious amount of indoctrination. If the majority of the world seems to believe in God, then God may very well exist. Otherwise, why would so many people be inclined to do so? Clearly God must have left an impression. Either way, it is still a maybe. It is an assumption--one strong enough to act in place of knowledge. This leads the person who had become annoyed or offended by it to choose to believe otherwise. But therein lies an innate problem.

Choosing not to believe is basically admitting belief in the first place. The brain is a funny machine that tosses out garbage on a regular basis. It misses its own mistakes as a commonality. Choosing not to believe in something is not an action taken against an assumption or knowledge. It is an action against belief itself. You have to already believe in something for you to choose to turn your back to it. You can not look away from a rock that is not already there. Either the rock is there or you can assume it's there (if, I guess, you closed your eyes or something), but you have to believe in the rock before you can clearly state that, "I turned away from that rock!"

The perception that you are turning away from something that has absolutely no relationship to you is a pile is brain-generated garbage. Of course, this whole process seems to take place one subconscious layer down. It is dark enough that we sort of skip over it. We end up creating the rules of our reality which are really just fake. Doing all these things does not break the human mind. It just sort of lets the wackiness happen and moves on slightly more corrupted than before. We do this a lot sadly.

My advice is to be very clear what you choose to believe in. Don't be so quick to just paint a reality the way you want. Be open minded and ready to accept some truths that are not particularly comfortable. Knowing hard truths will not make you weaker. On the contrary, you will be more prepared to deal with life when it tosses you those curve balls. Simply be aware and ready for anything. And when I say anything, I mean ANYTHING!

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Monday, March 19, 2018

Fairyland Detectives -- What's It All About?



I originally got the idea to write "Fairyland Detectives" after reading "Who Censored Roger Rabbit" by Gary Wolf. I had already written a Fairyland story earlier and thought it would be fun to actually make a serious crime story set in a world that was imaginary. It was fun to write but the real challenge was making the cover.

The guy on the right is yours truly. The one next to me is my friend Shawn O'Toole who is also an outstanding writer. (That is not a real beard by the way.) We actually did use a green screen for the shot and took our pictures separately. We are not actually standing next to one another. (The guns in both of our hands are actually the same gun.)

We gave the finished image to my friend and illustrator Coy Field II and he drew the background and made it look like we were standing around a bunch of cute, cartoony animals in a magical land. The final project is a surprisingly nice effect! It is one of my favorite covers of all of my books, and the story is a fun ride too. If you are a fan of the movie "Who Framed Roger Rabbit," this is a great story to read, but be prepared for some hard knocks along the way.

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Thursday, March 15, 2018

Fairy Tale Spotlight: Proof?

Have you ever thought about what you should do if you were given proof of something supernatural? A lot of people think that all they need in this world is proof for them to believe in something. This is actually not as true as they would like to believe. Believing in the impossible is a lot harder than it used to be. The process of thought is also not in the order that most people think it is. I'll explain.

The common thought is that proof equals belief. The two concepts are often quarantined off from one another despite what we think. The actual fact is that the proof exists and we can either believe it or fail to do so on an individual basis. Just seeing proof of something amazing has no real bearing on your ability to believe.

Now why is it like that? When someone gives you a stick, don't you believe it's a stick? Did you need them to tell you it was a stick in order to believe it? No. You knew what a stick was, and so you simply believed it was a stick. But what about the supernatural? Why is that different? We know what the supernatural is (just like the stick). We see the phenomenons in fiction all the time. We hear about them really happening sometimes on TV (such as ghost sightings and the like). But if it actually happened to you, would it be enough to believe in it? Believe it or not, there is a good chance you will simply try to rationalize through it before jumping to a supernatural conclusion which you may not actually reach.

You may conclude that the reason you fail to believe is because of the rarity of these happenings. Sticks are everywhere while supernatural occurrences are extremely rare. But if I could simply ask a question: How do you even know that? How does anybody know that supernatural occurrences are rare? How much time have you spent on researching it? Seems to me that most people want to avoid dealing with the supernatural because they are worried how it will make them look. And if you aren't really searching, you probably shouldn't be considered an expert on the rarity of it.

So naturally when you encounter the real thing, you force yourself to contemplate the reality of it. But then something else happens to make it even worse. Everyone in the world has been telling you that such things are unreal! This narrative had been perpetuating ever since your parents told you that there was no Santa Clause. From that point on, nothing amazing was ever real! It created a sort of filter that would make you question everything that seemed out of place in your life. So when that moment finally comes when you are presented with the reality that there are amazing things out there... you step back... and you might not even accept it.

So proof has nothing to do with belief. Belief is something you must strive for. There was a time when supernatural things were common. They would surprise us but we would still deal with them according to who we were. Today we are simply unready for any of those things. They come and go and we often find ourselves under their thumbs without even knowing it.

In order for proof to have any meaning at all to you, your mind must be opened to things that are simply amazing. Go ahead. Let loose of your imagination. Keep a watchful eye and silently try and figure this world out. Look for proof and be ready to acknowledge it when it confronts you personally.

Otherwise... you can always play it safe and just live a normal life.

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